I thought I'd start today by giving each of my kids screen names. I'm choosing Winnie the Pooh characters. My daughter will be known as Rabbit. My twin sons will be Pooh and Tigger. If you knew my kids, you'd know why I picked each of those . In this photo, Tigger is on the left, Pooh center, and Rabbit is on the right.
Each of my kids has had health issues. Rabbit had allergies and food sensitivities, and had bladder reflux. Tigger has a heart murmur. And Pooh was diagnosed with fluid on his left kidney before he was born. Rabbit still has food sensitivities, but everything else seems better. Tigger's heart murmur is actually getting better. But, Pooh, on the other hand, still has fluid on his left kidney, and now has fluid on his right kidney. Today he had a Renal Scan at Children's Hospital. He was sedated, and all went well. We won't get results back for a few days. The scan will show the rate at which his kidneys are emptying, which essentially tells us how well they are functioning. He really seems healthy, otherwise. It's hard to think that there is anything wrong.
One of the reasons my husband and I chose to home school was Rabbit's food allergies and sensitivities. It just seemed easiest to keep her at home and make home made meals that I know won't affect her adversely. But, then I think, what if Pooh needs more tests or surgery or other things that will interrupt home school. I have to remind myself, the reason we chose this path was so we could be more flexible; so we could meet the individual needs of our children. It's not that I'm concerned about the outcome of the tests - Pooh is in God's hands. It's me wanting my way in the day to day operations of things here.
I want to start the middle of August, and finish by the end of May. I want my time and my way. I know this is selfish and wrong. I need to let God lead. I'll get there. A work in progress... Philippians 1:6 says, "For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus." Amen.